This Is So Me...there's Always Someone I've Got A Crush On!

Sometimes it only lasts a few days or a week, sometimes off and on for years. I've had a few girl and celebrity crushes but mostly it's men...attractive older men in some sort of authority position in my life. I don't think I've got "daddy issues", I mean I totally love my dad but it's not men like him that it happens with.

I tend to have sexual fantasies about my crushes...doing things I would NEVER do in reality, like getting busy with a manager in an elevator or a supply closet at work. When I was in school it used to happen with teachers, the first one I remember was in 7th grade but there were college professors too.

I used to feel guilty about the sexual thoughts but the older I've gotten the more I've accepted that for me it's just harmless escapism. It's sort of like reading a smutty novel; none of it will ever actually happen and I would probably run in terror if it seemed like it was going to.
thinkmaker thinkmaker
31-35, F
Nov 27, 2012