Bottled Up

For as long as I can remember, I've always bottled up all of my bad emotions. Everything that made me angry, sad, stressed, everything, I bottle up. I last for a while, but about once a month, I just snap, and sit in my room crying all night. I know that I shouldn't keep my emotions bottled up, but I just can't show them. And recently, so many things have been going wrong. It seems like fate is just against me. I want to talk to a therapist, but I don't want my parents to know that I do this. I know that it's wrong, but I can't help it. I'm suppose to be the happy child. I'm suppose to be the one that helps everyone. The one that doesn't need help. And it just keeps building and building. And recently, the breakdowns have been getting closer, and closer together. The only friend I would think about telling already has depression problems and there's so many emotions that I've bottled up because of her. I really, really like her, and she's dating someone else right now, and says she loves him. I want to tell someone, but I just don't let myself.
FlamingMusic FlamingMusic
13-15, M
Dec 9, 2012