I'm drowning.. Slowly. Nobody notices. I say I'm fine and they all believe my smile but inside I'm dying.
audralina09 audralina09
22-25, F
2 Responses Feb 22, 2014

I can relate so well.
The facade becomes painful and eventually makes everything worse.
If I may ask, what is causing you to drown and die on the inside?

The fact that nobody cares. All my friends step on me to get what they want and they never look my way. My problems aren't as big as theirs, so they don't even bother asking me how I'm feeling. I get used by guys, i can't tell anybody how I feel because nobody cares. I just can't. I'll stop myself now.

No offense, but it sounds like you have the wrong friends.
Would you say you have a low self esteem?

If you ever need to talk to someone, I will definitely listen. I know emotional and mental pain and I'd be happy to listen.

Yes, low self esteem totally and I'm insecure..

If you don't mind me asking, what started your low self esteem and your hatred of yourself?
No offense, but if that's you in your profile picture you're certainly not ugly. You look pretty.
But then again, I've known pretty girls who had lower self esteems than I did...

I was raped and beat a couple years back. I self harmed for a couple years.. I stopped, but I still want to do it every night.

This is one of those times that I wish I knew what to say that would make you feel better, but I sadly don't know what that would be and can just say that I'm so sorry.
I'm just sorry. I'm glad you don't self harm anymore, but I'm sorry you have the urges.

It's really hard.. I cry myself to sleep every night because I want to so bad, but I know I shouldn't.. Thank you:) it means much to hear you say that..

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I can relate all too well.