Can I Gain His Trust Back?

Okay, I need some advice. I met this wonderful boy (first real love) called harry who I seemed to click straight away, vise versa for him! He did have a gf at the time, but he told me that he couldn’t trust her, and was meaning to break up with her.

I was with him for a few weeks, then he suddenly tells me that he needs a week to think and sort things out? I was confused and was thinking the worst, and I ended up doing something I totally regret.

I went to this house party, and kissed this boy while I was drunk, called matt. Tbh I didn't know what I was doing at that point. Then things got worse and I was having to decide between them both, as I sort of had feelings for the boy I kissed at the party. But deep down not realizing I really wanted to be with harry. Of course I told harry that I kissed matt, and he understood and was willing to forgive me. Ok so now you think we all lived happily ever after?

No. I am pretty bad with making decisions, and decide that I want to be with the boy I kissed at the party, so then we get together, for a couple of weeks, we were okay together, but I soon realised that I was most happy with harry... so then I soon get into this visious circle, as harry and matt are actually friends and they go to the same college!

So then a few weeks pass and I meet up with them both at another house party. Harry was upset with me, and we had an argument, and matt was angry, but he also had troubles of his own at home. I felt particually bad at this point.

Tbh I am not the type of person that likes to have centre of attention. I am a shy person and am angry with myself for this happening as this has never happened to me before. So then a few months pass and I still have feelings for harry. . I told him that I still like him , then he sed to me that his feelings for me have now gone. I don’t know what to do now.. as now I have these feelings I cant get rid of, it stops me from liking anyone else the way I did with harry.

I was just wondering if there was anyway of gaining harry’s trust back as deep down I am a kind person who really want to be with the one I do love. I know you can’t make someone love you, but I have these feelings that Harry does still like me, but is possibly afraid that I might do what I did before.. and I know that I would never do that.. he means so much to me. Any Ideas?

missfreshh1 missfreshh1
18-21, F
Feb 21, 2009