I am currently living at my parents house, again. Anyway, I get out there and I feel that I hurt people unintentionally. These are the people that I love and care for. They pretend to truly care for me, but I feel like they TRULY hate me. Anyway, I am trying to go to sleep but the voices of very distinctive people will not allow me to rest. The conversations are SO detailed that I can make out every word. They are my closest friends. This particular time it is 2 of them and they are discussing how screwed up I am and they are quoting actual incidents. I mean they are ridiculing the hell out of me. These things they are saying are making me cry and want to blow my brains out.