In 6 weeks I will be 50, which on one level doesn't make a big difference to me, but on a larger level makes me extremely self-conscious. It seems like everything I've ever started, I've never been able to complete. I've had two major jobs that started out full-time and I eventually worked down to part-time. Then I owned my own small business for several years. With help of the down-turn in the economy, and my own issues, I closed the doors on that, with a bunch of debt facing me. My first marriage ended in divorce (mostly because my ex found someone else more compatible). I am VERY happily married right now, but looking back on my past, I don't see any real success. And to me, success is not a monetary thing. I just don't feel that I've accomplished much at all in my first half-century (yikes!), and not knowing if I have a long second-half, I'm just trying to get a grip on life at the moment.