Am I Truly The Selfish One?

I DREAM AND FANTASIZE OF HURTING THE PERSON I LOVE, MY BOYFRIEND.....HE FORCED ME TO GO THROUGH WITH SOMETHING I TOLD MYSELF I WOULD NEVER DO......I GOT RID OF A PERFECTLY GOOD CHILD BECAUSE HE SAID HE WASNT READY FOR ANOTHER ONE YET AND HE DIDNT HAVE HIS LIFE ON TRACK LIKE HE NEEDED IT TO BE SO THEREFOR I HAD TO SAY BY TO MY CHILD....BUT WHAT IF I WOULD OF KEPT IT? WOULD I HAVE BEEN THE SELFISH ONE? HE CLAIMS I WOULD HAVE BEEN BUT I THINK I WOULD OF BEEN VERY GENEROUS BECAUSE OF THE FACT I WAS GIVING SOMEONE ELSE  LIFE......THATS NOT SELFISH IS IT??
dabestmomever dabestmomever
18-21, F
2 Responses Aug 10, 2010

If you really love the baby,and want to be mother,just follow your heart. <br />
You are not selfish.Your bf are not ready to be a father,he won't take the responsibility.Maybe he wants to get enough preparation for receiving a baby, or maybe he is selfish, and scared of taking the responsibility. The important thing is "Does he love you now?"

If he has that sort of power on you - get out now or u will end up like me 43 10 month old and trapped in a nightmare