I Want It To Happen Soon.

I thought I was Bi, until i understood the term Bi-curious haha. I have this crush on this girl who I don't know if she's straight or not... and Im starting to crush on my friend who told me she is bi but she has a boyfriend. Every night i wish i could have a serious relationship with one of them. : It sucks because my dad and I are really close but he's a homophobe so I can't tell him. I've never been with a girl, and i've only come close to kissing one once. haha, pathetic huh? Ive wanted a relationship with another girl for awhile now and I want it to happen soon but I dont know what to do. It would be my first time and im scared. :( :P