The first time I'd ever done anything sexual, I think I was too young, I actually know I was, I had a friend and we used to play football together and ride our bikes, we were normal kids but there were a few times when we slept over at each others houses that we used to do stuff with each other, we were only around 10, we used to give each other oral and there was even one time I remember we gave each other anal sex, I believe I was 12 and he was 11 at the time, and I just repressed it as we drifted apart as friends, but, I don't know how, maybe they just guessed or they were told, but people knew about it when I was around 15 in high school and I kept getting bullied because of it, I never admitted to it even though it happened because I knew it would only make things worse... Now that I've grown more I get attracted to some guys but I don't know if I'll ever be with another one because of what happened, I just don't know how my family would see me, I feel like they'd be disgusted and that people would just push me away again...
18-21, M
Dec 6, 2012