The Exception, Rather Than The Norm?

Let me just start by saying I'm new here, I've been married to an amazing, wonderful man for nearly 14 yrs, and we have found success in our marriage by basically doing the exact opposite of what everyone else does. He has known from very early on that there has been a part of me that is at least bi-curious, even if I haven't fully acknowledged it myself. The other night he sat me down and basically said, "I never want you to feel like you are settling for anything less than total happiness." We plan on renewing our vows next year, and there is still this big "question mark" (as he puts it) hanging over my head about my sexuality. We have a great and very satisfying sex life, but lately he has put more emphasis on making love to me the way a woman would (i.e., oral and fingers) rather than traditional intercourse. This always elicits a greater response from me. He has had multiple partners in the past before we met (disease free, of course) and is not remotely interested in another FFM. He has explicitly encouraged me to start dating women and be more open to my attractions, going so far as helping me setup a dating profile! All of this is just making my head spin. I feel a sense of relief because he is SO supportive, yet at the same time I'm scared to death. I love him more than life itself. I love our home and our family (we have a young daughter) and I want to grow old with him and only him. But I would be lying to myself if I said I didn't get turned on by women. I've never even really kissed another woman, let alone experimented sexually. I just wanted to know if anyone else could relate (hubby loving and supportive, doesn't want to be involved, but you've never even gone there before). I don't know where to begin. Any advice?
emblaze79 emblaze79
31-35, F
Dec 4, 2012