Never Have I Loved Or Felt So Loved

I reconnected with a college girlfriend who I knew was a lesbian after being married to my college sweetheart, a man, after 23 years. That was almost 2 years ago we reconnected and I will never be the same. I have never felt so loved or so much in love as I have with her. The emotional connection we share is so intimate and no one knows me better. The sex is simply mind-blowing. I feel like everything fell into place the last couple of years in my relationship with her. I am untangling my marriage slowly but surely to be free to pursue an open relationship with her. I know my husband and kids will be shocked when I tell them. I did not tell my husband the real reasons for the divorce underway because I was afraid it would anger him and make a financial settlement difficult. I have a lot of guilt over not being honest for he is a good man with a good heart. I am worried that I will be discriminated against whennI come out. But I know finding this kind of love is rare and I am taking the path less travelled. My hope is that those who love me will come around and accept me for who I am, and accept my relationship with her, for she is truly the love of my lifetime.
Susuwest Susuwest
51-55, F
Jan 5, 2013