What The Hell

So ive tried my best to not talk to my ex, Sean, but as usual it never works out the way I want it to. I always end up back in contact with him again. Anyway we've been texting back and forth, not much has been said, and all I want to do is lie to him and make him feel like ****. I use to be really into manipulation. For awhile the thoughts stopped but every time I feel like im losing someone or I feel as though they arent giving me the attention I want I tend to want to say things that are so far from true its ****** up.

For example: This has been our conversation so far:

Sean:Hey"

Me: "Hi"

Sean: "How are you?"

Me: "Horrible, how are you?"

Sean: "Kinda down....whats up?"

Me: "Ive just had some weird dreams. Kinda sad that im alone on vday"

Sean: "Yeah"

Sean: "Im sorry to hear that"

Me: "Im dealing with it. Its that time of the month"

Sean: "Yeah"

(thats over a two hour period)

All I want to respond with is "I so got **** faced last night" and then act as if I didnt realize who I was talking to. I am such a *****.

YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet
26-30, F
Feb 14, 2010