I Am Broken, I Am Christian

Have you ever seen "that" girl in the hallway at school, church, the mall, walmart? You know who I'm talking about. The girl that has an obvious problem yet you have no idea what it is, and you don't want to ask her about it even though you're dying to know. I'm that girl. I'm 17, I've been a Christian for a long time now, and I've had trichotillomania since I was 9. Trichotillomania is a disorder that causes people to pull out their hair from anywhere on their body. I pull out hair from my scalp and my arms. If I go anywhere without a bandana or hat on my head, I never fail to get funny looks, laughs, gestures, or just straight up bullied. I have the worst case my doctor has ever seen, and there is no cure for trich. Jesus is the only reason I'm here today. Trich also causes me to be depressed. Think about it, a teenage girl that has practically NO hair? What one thing to most teenage girls obsess about other than boys...their hair. Great right? But I've learned to try to focus that on Jesus instead, and to accept how I am. No matter how broken. My family isn't so great either; my brother is abusive, my dad isn't around a whole lot, and my mom is crazy...not in a good way. And again, no matter how broken, no matter how much I lose or miss out on, I know Jesus is there for me. HE is my rock, my strength, my sheild, my defender, deliverer, my comfort, my everything!
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18-21, F
2 Responses May 21, 2012

I was really encouraged when I read your story! Your outlook on life is so amazing! I am so glad to hear that you're turning to Jesus in your time of need. Always remember, the Lord will never give us anything that we cannot handle when we lean on Him! God bless you, and know that you are in my prayers!

I'm sorry that life is so hard for you. I don't understand why life must be so difficult but my beliefe is that there is no comfort except in our Lord. In my life I have come to realize that fact. I also believe that until a person has tolerated much pain in their lives, they don't. Need jesus. Its in the valleys. The horrible places in our lives that we really see and feel him there. I will pray for u. Wanda