Who Can I Speak To ?

I have been a born again Christian for about 4 years now, I come from a violent and demonic childhood, I met a man who showed me the lord , he was a beautiful person but even tho I was now more aware of my sins, I cheated on him. I was sorry I had done this and preyed for.forgiveness. I was 18 and he was 35 so I guess it just wasnt ment to be that's not excusing my behaviour. Now I am with another man, he isn't a believer but he's a diamond and im very much in love. Im now 21 and have noone except him. Which means I have no friends or family that I can talk to about the lord. I've spoken to my partner but I want to take things easy with him incase I put him off. I hate socializing I can't bring myself to do it so how do I this. I've become a terrible Christian, I smoke I swear I lie I eye up other men even though im happy, the list goes on. But the thing is .... Inside im not that person. I feel unworthy to prey to God now as I no he loves me but is disappointed. not boasting so please don't take this as vanity , I have been blessed with beauty and I have a very large chest, I get so much attention and find it hard not to play on it. I no it's wrong I really need good advice so please guys I would appreciate deeply if anyone has some advice x
irishgirl21 irishgirl21
18-21, F
2 Responses Sep 19, 2012

oh hun, I will be keeping you in my prayers. I want to encourage you to definitely get connected with a christian community. I can't stress enough the importance of that. We were not meant to follow Christ on our own. Let me just tell you that if you want to follow Christ, you really need to surrender everything to him. Which is not easy and it is not comfortable, but it always worth it. So I just challenge you to dig into God's word and get plugged into his Church! And pray.... you don't need to clean yourself up before you come before him. He just wants you to come to him as you are and he will clean you up! Love you sister!!!

One of the best first steps a young Christian can do is seek out a Bible believing and teaching church. I'm aware that at first this may be a bit intimidating. Do you have any friends or family members that attend church? If so I strongly encourage you to ask them to take you to the next service. Also while it is perfectly natural to feel guilty or ashamed of our sinful thoughts and actions you shouldn't let that keep you from praying. When we are at our weakest is when we need Jesus the most. The very reason He died on the cross was to forgive us of our sins, but that forgiveness does not come automatically, we have to approach Him in prayer, confess our sins to Him, and sincerely ask for His forgiveness. The last piece of advice I can give you is to study the Bible regularly. If you don't have one their are many Christian organizations that are more than happy to provide you with one for free. Just Google "free Bible" and you should have no problems. I hope this helps. God bless you.