My Grandmother Used To Say That To Me Often

she would get drunk on anything .... this night in about 1984 or 85 she got drunk of vanilla essence and was vomiting up blood

everyone was ignoring her billowing cries and pain


she sat crying after hours of ranting at everyone and hitting Bill and cursing my grandfather and us all


all I could do was give her a hug...


she said "I am a broken woman kelly"  (she used to nickname me)


but I understand today her suffering and pain

I did then but I used to feel angry at her at times too....

but I understand her suffering .... her father, her brothers, her god-awful selfish children made her such a broken woman.
czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
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May 13, 2012