A Little Hope

It's interesting how people react to me...since I was smoking a cigarette and intoxicated they choice one to blame. Cigarette smokers blame it on the alcohol or that I rolled my own. People who drink blame it the cigarettes. I know it was a mix of so many things. Both are bad for me. I've decided to quit both.
However, I wonder if some of these comments are to reassure themselves that they are safe. An it can't happen to me attitude.
As far as my healing goes, some people treat me like I should be better and the other half like I can't do anything. It's no wonder I'm depressed.
I just want understanding, help when I ask and allowed to do what I can.
Any advice on how to deal with people?
Badina Badina
46-50, F
3 Responses May 5, 2012

You are still here. That is a blessing.

Thanks for the response. I guess the hardest part of an accident is to forgive oneself. Once I do that I feel I can smile and walk away from butt heads.

At first, I cried. Of course, that didn't work. Now, I just smile and walk away. Accidents happen and people are sometimes too daft to realize that. It makes me angry when people act like that. It doesn't matter what caused it, it happened. I know it's hard to do, but I get satisfaction seeing their faces when I walk away. They're speechless.

You are a miracle. A survivor and strong, do not forget that.