HauntedI am not sure if this happens to everyone who has experienced the truma of being a burn victim but I have dreams that are so vivid it is almost as if I was there again.
I wake up wanting to scream but I can't... I can't because it will hurt my boyfriend. Because he blames himself for everything I have been through.
I can't express how I feel an neither can he because we both live in fear of bring up painful memories in the other.
Friends try to sympathise but the truth is they don't understand. You can only understand this kind of truma if you have been through it personally.
I here people say "could have been worse", "I thought your face was burnt", "it's not as bad as everyone said". Judgmental and idiotic things like that are what fuel my emotion. I shouldn't have happened but it did. It could have been worse but it was still bad. 12% is not much in perspective but it is enough to scar me both physically and emotionally.