My Mom

So I'm currently awake at my friends house at 1:09AM because I can't sleep due to losing my mother yesterday. She was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia in May of 2012. Now it is 2013, and I don't know how I'm going to deal with life without my Mom. I'm am only 15 years old, and I want to hold my mothers hand more than everright now, but I can't. She was the one I would call if I ever needed someone to talk, because she would always listen. She always gave, and never expected. And now the only thing I can do for her is to do well in school and have a good fufilled life. She made my sister and I promise we would do that, and I couldn't live with myself if I broke that. I wish I could talk to her right now, and the only thing bringing me comfort is the fact I know she isn't in pain anymore and she is in paradise with God taking care of her. I'm going to miss her so much. I know she can't be here physically, but she will always be in my heart and thoughts. R.I.P. Mom xoxo <3
Elaine26 Elaine26
13-15, F
1 Response Jan 17, 2013

Hi Elaine,I was 34 when I lost my mother to ovarian cancer, even as an independent grown-up, I felt lost and defeated. I remember the first thing that came to my mind being "If my mom is not around, who's praying for us?", but now I know she's still watching over me and my family. I am sure your mom is doing the same!I loved what you said about doing well at school, you are an incredibly smart girl. I am sure you will do amazingly well and believe me, your hard work today, despite the sadness and longing, will prove to be very beneficial when things get better. And they will get better believe me!Lots of love x x