I, like all you out there, would not have invited cancer in invade my body, but it did anyway. Noone in their right mind wants to go there. The exception may be those watching a child or spouse go through it. I can understand wanting to go through it instead of them. But even then the person would not choose cancer for anyone.
I cannot think of anything that is pleasant about cancer treatment. Some treatment options are less obnoxious than others, but they are ALL less than desireable. (While not fun my family and friends insisted that I was cute bald) I learned to go on with my life even when I did not feel like it. I learned that I was/am a much stronger person than I ever thought I was.
I learned that sometimes those around you have more trouble dealing with your illness than you do. I had a friend who to this day cannot accept that I am okay with what I went through. She still thinks that I should stop participating in things going on around me. It was like she was more upset about this than I was. For along time I didn't understand why she was so worried about what I did or didn't do. Finally I think I got it. When she is around me, even now, she has to face her fear of cancer.
I care about this person. I hope that she NEVER has to go through something like this. BUT...I can no longer allow myself to spend time with her. I no longer explain myself to her. I am tired of attempting to convince her that I truely am fine. The cancer is gone. Life goes on. I hope that if she ever faces this demon that she can reach inside and find strength to fight it.
I guess what I am saying is that cancer made me a survivor. I made it through this awful thing. I now choose to spend my time with people who accept me.
I am not only a survivor. I am a thriving survivor. Why? because I choose daily to live my life to the limit. I choose daily to cast aside my fear of reoccurance. I choose daily to place my faith in God. Why? because He helped me through it the first time and if I have to go there again He will help me then too.
To all you survivors out there I say we wear that title like a badge of courage. Let the world know with pride that you looked cancer in the face and lived to tell about it.