I Am Not Proud Of It.

I am not proud that i cheated on my boyfriend/fiance. I am actually really ashamed and live with the guild everyday when i wake up. My boyfriend is gone away basically not sugar coating it, to jail. For something not that bad, but bad enough that he is gone for a year. Well I am lonely, and i truly do love him but it just happened. Not once or twice, but it keeps happening. The guy i am cheating on my boyfriend with is great, we do a lot together, i told him before we started seeing each other that i wasn't leaving my man and this is what it is. But then we started hanging together everyday then night. Now we practically cant get enough out of each other. I still am in love with my boyfriend, and want to be with him. But I think in a way i shouldn't feel bad, because of his choices. And no this doesn't give me a good reason to cheat. And people don't leave comments to be judgmental I have a mother, and i don't want to hear what i already know.
MissingYou4527 MissingYou4527
22-25, F
2 Responses Aug 10, 2010

Thank you so much for your advice. I wrote a list of pros and cons this weekend. And have came up with a decision. Now i just have to figure out how to deal with it. Thanks again. <br />
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Have a wonderful day. :)

Well it sounds like you need to make a choice, not only for the men, but for your mental health as well. you should seriously sit down and make a list of pros and cons for each man. I think it would be hard to go back to your fiancee, thinking of the tmies you cheated on him.<br />
I'm sure you have heard this, but your so young, and have the rest of your life ahead of you. You may want to consider walking away from both relationships and starting anew. I'm not saying your fiancee wouldnt forgive you if he found out, but you are going to have to keep it a secret the rest of your life if you marry him. It would only make you feel better if you told him. unfortuantley I have to live with this mistake myself. <br />
Take your time, way out the options,make a decision and dont look back. You will cause yourself a thousand deaths if you keep beating yourself up.