I Cheat So Much Time And I Don't Want To Do This Anymore.

I started to have a boyfriend when I was in high school, i didn't fall in love to him because I had a crush he was 2 years gap on me,I broke up with my boyfriend just because i don't love him.But my crush could not attract me,and he don't try to become friends of me.. I try the first move to be his friend,we become friends and so on he became my boyfriend,but after a few months he cheated on me it was so hurt to me and i want to revenge in any boy that will become my boyfriend. So from then until now I don't know every time I got a boyfriend that truly dearly serious on me,I can't avoid cheating,in the first time relationship i will like him but in a couple of months i will feel bored and i started chatting any other man.. I never fall in love a truly love I haven't experience like that. And now i really want to be honest of my boyfriend now and to myself we are more than a year and i prove that he will do anything for me.. But lately he found out that i cheated him,we had a big fight and he wanted to that i will leave in his house.. I can't risk loosing him he understand me a lot about my life and everything he accept me as what I am.. I don't want to be a cheater on every man also especially to my self..
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Nov 27, 2012