Married 7 Years, And Than I Cheated...Last night, I cheated on my husband. I met a lovely man who was so sweet to me. My husband has been video chatting with women and texting other women for years. And when I've confronted him, he's just gotten mad and occasionally hit me or pushed me. We've started marriage counseling twice and each time he found excuses to cancel appointments. Then about a year ago, I discovered he'd actually slept with another woman. I'd felt rather worthless for a while anyways, but this just finished me. For the last year I've see sawed back and forth between trying to just be ok with everything and my desire to feel wanted. I do t want to leave him and break up our family. We have 2 great kids and he is an amazing father.
But when I met x, it just clicked. We talked and laughed and everything just felt so right. We finally decided to meet alone, and things progressed very quickly. It was passionate and beautiful. I expected to feel miserable and riddled with guilt this morning when I woke up and saw my husband, but the fact of the matter is... I don't. Not at all! I feel happy and completed and in love. Only good things.
I want to continue to see him. I want to continue to make love to him. I've never even entertained the idea of having a lover on the side before. I always found the thought so detestable before. So why do I feel so alive. So excited. So free!