He Knows Now

By finding out I was talking to his ex-best friend again whose friendship between my bf and he I ruined, my bf finally found out the whole truth.  I had been cheating on him for 13 out of the 14 months of our relationship.  It's hard to be completely honest, but I feel it was necessary for our relationship to survive.  No more lies, just flat out 100% honesty.  The hardest part was explaining to him how I was obsessed with the one guy I continually cheated on him with.  An obsession which I thought was love at one point.  I am so thankful that my bf is so loving, caring, and understanding that we can work through this.  It's not an obsession with cheating, but an obsession with attention.  It's a dark path that got me nothing but pain and disgust in myself.  I'm making it count now.

dizzyconfusion dizzyconfusion
18-21, F
Dec 8, 2008