He Knows Now
By finding out I was talking to his ex-best friend again whose friendship between my bf and he I ruined, my bf finally found out the whole truth. I had been cheating on him for 13 out of the 14 months of our relationship. It's hard to be completely honest, but I feel it was necessary for our relationship to survive. No more lies, just flat out 100% honesty. The hardest part was explaining to him how I was obsessed with the one guy I continually cheated on him with. An obsession which I thought was love at one point. I am so thankful that my bf is so loving, caring, and understanding that we can work through this. It's not an obsession with cheating, but an obsession with attention. It's a dark path that got me nothing but pain and disgust in myself. I'm making it count now.