I Am A Suvivor Of Child Abuse!!!

I am a suvivor of child abuse, not a day goes by that I don't think about it & it affects my every day living, people tell me don't dwell on my past but unless you have walked a mile in my shoes, no one will ever know what i have gone threw & how i feel, I come from a family of 13 kids & my mother was never there for us, her boyfriend was the abuser..there's nothing more terrifying than getting beat on a daily basis, sometimes for things we didn't even do, my sister witch was only 8 yrs old had to play the role of mommy she cooked for us, gave us showers stuff that no 8yr old should ever have to do.. I remeber going to school with brusies & of course my mother would get turned in & nothing ever happened..so we lived in fear every day because her boyfriend told us if we told anyone he was gonna kill us!! & we believed it!! he was also sexually abusing my sister from the age of 8 until she was 13, & this had gone on for years....do i hold a grudge against my mother of course, because if she had been there for us, none of this would had happened,
mariah052309 mariah052309
26-30, F
Dec 3, 2012