Why Do I Feel This.I wrote a previous story about what happened with my cousins but to put that story short they liked to spank me a lot mainly with a hairbrush but now that I am older and the memories are coming up I am starting to feel a curiosity about that stuff as a sexually fetish. I am not sexually active and have no desire to be until I'm married but this just feels weird. I have been reading other stories about that stuff. Is this weird for me to feel curious about this. I think the dominant submissive thing is wrong but, I'm still kind of wondering.
As i continue to sort through my past I have more and more curiosity. please help.