I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

Secrets of a Family

By: Nutmeg2790

Written on July 24th, 2009

F or as long as I can remember, my Dad has pretty much not been the best example for the male gender. It started out with him basically insulting everything about me; from my thoughts, to my feelings, to my looks and everything inbetween. From there it escalated to slapping, punching, pinching but eventually he stopped beating me, and moved onto my younger brother. One day it got to the point that my dad threw my brother down the stairs and beat him with his fists until me and my mom could pull my dad off of him. The next day my dad drove me to school "to talk" and halfway there he just...freaked out and started yelling about crashing the car because there wasn't anything of value inside of it. Fast forward a few weeks and my mom got a call from my younger brother about how he was scared and how he just climbed down from the roof after debating whether or not to jump. Yea..things got to the point that my brother who was 14 at the time, was debating suicide. The day of his 15th birthday we had to commit him because we didn't have any way of being on 24/7 suicide watch and he was starting to become violent like my dad.

By: Nutmeg2790

Age: 18-21 , Female

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dollydoll

I just dont know how to react....

May be i will just say.. you are not alone. Although i may not know even remotely how much you are hurting, I can atleast empathize..

I have had some experiences with my dad too.. but thats because hes too protective and he demands too much..

I will just say.. hang in there and dont get bitter... grow from this experience and swear to yourself that you will prove your worth.. to the whole world..

Hope i have not bored u.. :)

My love for you.

Aug 23, 2009
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Nutmeg2790

No offense towards you smallz but my family has always been a church going family, small town baptist family. My dad used to use the church as an excuse for his behavior as a way to keep me from becoming worthless white trash.

Aug 5, 2009
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smallz

i understand how u feel. ave once been a victim of that experience but no more.ur father can get freaked out, beat u or ur brother but he cant kill u.no man can be killed by his fellow man except if God wants to kill the man through the fellow guy.take heart. if u accept Jesus as ur Lord and u obey Him, read the Bible; u will realise that no matter what ur dad does, u will always find peace.serve God with ur whole heart and in sincerity, and u shall see changes in ur family.experiment this on urself, after seeing positive changes which i know will surely happen, then u can see ur brother thru the eperiment too.

Jul 31, 2009
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Nutmeg2790

Honestly? I'm not sure. Some I feel almost back to normal and a little happy but other days I just still feel so angry about it. My dad btw is attempting to make amends for it and "be the dad he should've been" and at this point I don't think he can be.

Jul 25, 2009
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pro390

How are you really doing now?

Jul 25, 2009
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Nutmeg2790

Haha I'll pass but thanks for the suggestion

Jul 24, 2009
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Nutmeg2790

He's doing a lot better. Both of them are actually medicated more than most pharmacies at this point though.

Jul 24, 2009
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experiences

This sounds like a very difficult situation to be going through. I don't have the best relationship with my dad either... the best thing to do is to support your little brother... he needs you and stay as strong as you can

Take care,

Jul 24, 2009
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luckypickle

that's such a sad story. how is your brother now?

Jul 24, 2009
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