I'm still not sure what happened. I'm not sure if this is real, or if I made it up. I won't think of this for years - and then, suddenly, I won't be able to think of anything else. It started again, recently.

I've started drinking, and I'm not sure which caused the other.

I was on a hospital bed - I'm not sure how old I am. I remember lying flat on my stomach. There's a curtain pulled around my cot. My legs are spread.

There are two voices in the back, talking. They're both men. I remember one laughing, and a sharp pain as something is pushed into me.

Then the pain's gone, and the men are gone.

I never spoke of this to anyone. I remember feeling afraid, and humiliated. I don't think I understood what was going on, what was happening, though I understood it was wrong.

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Jan 19, 2013