Stolen Childhood

i have never really told anyone about this my wife knows and i told my mother about ten years ago but i think it is now starting to affect my marriage and i love my wife very much 

 ok the abuse started when my mom rented a top floor apartment from this older man and on occasion would leave us with him i was introduced to sex when i around 5 or 6 and it started with me having a accident and wetting my self so he helped my change and it started then i can remember him and his friends all giving me oral sex and making me give them oral sex at first then the rape started at various times the worst thing was i was told how much i liked it because my penis would get hard but at that age i believed them and the shame has never left me around the time i was maybe 8 or 9  i was also introduced to animal sex it was the most horrible time in my life i can remember starting to tell my  teacher back then and being told that it didnt happen to little boys just girls and remember my mom telling other family members that he did not trust this man with my sisters but my older brother and my self were left with him although to my knowledge he never did it to my brother i really dont know why i am telling strangers about this other than maybe some other guy went though the same thing back then well basicly thats my storie with out going into detail

jack36 jack36
6 Responses Mar 5, 2009

Reading stories like your break my heart. I thank God I never got abused, but I do remember being touched and made me feel so scared that I started crying. You guys that actually go through the worse things, I am amazed to how strong you people are and keep it with you for the rest of your lifes. I'm sorry about this happening to you, it shouldn't have, bad things always happen to good people. God bless.

Jack, I am so sorry this happened to you. A big miss conception is that boys do not get molested but this is just not true. You are not alone and you are not the only male that has gone through this. You have come to the right place to talk and meet others with similar stories. This community is a great support system!

Sorry to hear what happened to you. I am a male to. (new here) Dont want to talk about it but I can tell you first hand from being molested and raped from age 7 to 17 you cant control it. No matter how much you dont want what is happening to you. I dont know why it happens but it did(does) and I to was ashamed of myself but I knew down deep i did not want this.

I am so sorry that this happened to you. He, they stole your youth and your peace of mind. I pray that you will be made whole and that you can live the rest of your life free (mind, body and spirit).

I was abused from the age of 5 its normal to have some sensitivity down there I remember it would be there for a few seconds then it would go.. all children explore them selfs naturally to see what they have down there.. you should not feel guilty just for being a human being that person said that to manipulate you.... close the door on it and think about what you have now in life

Although i am female i can kind of understand as i was abused by a woman and her boyfriend, my mother thought it was safe for me to be with her as "only men abuse people" and i also know how it feels when your body reacts to the abuse, it does not mean you "liked it" it's just a physical reaction that you can't control. If it's starting to cause problems in your marriage maybe you should confide in your wife? the best thing to do would be to get help in the form of a therapist. Hope things get better x