I Am So Tired Of Dissapointments, Can Anyone Really Understand Me?I came to know the Lord when I was 17 years old. It was amazing , I believed I could conquer the world, that nothing was imppossible for me. I got married at 19 , and since that point everything has gone down. Down so low I am scared that I will ever be able to get back up. I had forgiven people in the past for the abuse and neglect I had experienced as a child, But I somehow managed to marry someone who has brought all those things back into my life. My encounters with other christians in my times of need were not helpful by much , and sometimes just added more harm to the situation. I am a mother who is struggling with trying to raise my children, without any help. This is a challenge for me for my parent's did not raise me. My marriage has led to verbal abuse, physical abuse, abandonement, financial catastrophy, and more. I have made bad choices due to my circumstances.I have sought the attention of other men looking to have the pain filled , only to regret that I have sinned against God. This has happened more than once. I have no real friends , No family............ People try to give me advise to do the right thing , when almost everyone and everything around me is wrong. I struggle so badly with my faith. I know life isn't suppossed to be perfect , But how long does it have to be bad? A lot of people give ear service, but no actuall real help. I am so lost, scared. Somtimes I feel there Is no hope for me. All I want to do is give my kids a good childhood, but all the odd's are against me. I don't believe God will hear my prayer's because of the sins I've commiited since I've come into the knowledge of him and his word. Is there any help for me........ I am mentally breaking down.......I just want things to get better for me someday. I am 28 Now and I cannot see a future for myself..........Can anyone feell my pain? Is there any help for me?
Fearfulheart 26-30, F 6 Responses 1 Aug 16, 2010