Some Thoughts On Paper

I started questioning my sexual orientation in 8th grade. I went to my friend, Alley, who is bisexual and talked to her about it. Now I'm a senior in highschool and I still like girls. I often try to imagine myself liking girls only, but I usually end up thinking about guys, too, so I at least know I'm actually bisexual. I told my closest friends about my love for girls as well as dudes, and they accept me completely. Even a few people I didn't tell know and they have no problem with it. I heard that it's going around the school, but not in a bad way. I've heard no mean rumors about it, which is good. I really wish I can find a girlfriend. I'm tired of guys right now and I'd like to try something new and possibly have a relationship, but there aren't many girls in my school who like girls, so I feel like I'm wasting my time..

I really want to come out fully, but, like a lot of other people who have difficulty coming out, the fear of being rejected in society keeps the secret hidden in the dark.

I wanna thank anybody who read this for reading. It feels good to get this stuff off my chest. Hopefully I can find a nice girl in highschool. If not, we'll see what college has to offer.