To Late For Me?

If I had only known then, what I know now! Ain't that the truth.

I am married to the only person I have had sex with. It has been 39 years which is a lifetime. I have never had the "feelings" that everyone else has talked about and you see portrayed on TV and in movies. I have never felt anything during intercourse, so I was confused, and looked for answers everywhere. I had a female doctor tell me that was impossible! Boy I was a freak I figured.

Seven years ago I was into playing games on the pc, and liked talking to others in game rooms on chat. I really got to look forward to talking to one guy in particular. We shifted from chatting in game rooms, to chatting on msn messenger. We had so much in common and could talk about anything. We spent hours talking. We laughed and had so much fun. Before we knew it, we were in love! Whoa! Didn't expect that.

One day my new found love said they needed to tell me something, and me, being the smart-*** I can be at times, said, what, are you a woman?

Well I was right. I was surprised, but as I thought about it, I realized that it didn't matter. So many things I had questioned through the years now made sense to me. One problem we had was, I am in the US and she lived in the UK.

We wanted more than anything to be together, forever, but nothing is that simple. Here I am married, with obligations here, and since she has a traffic offense, the US will not allow her into the country! How stupid!

Several years and many complications later, here I am in a straight marriage, with a lesbian heart.

I can't have her, so what do I do? Is it to late for me?
JDfromNC JDfromNC
56-60, F
2 Responses Nov 30, 2012

Why not plan a girl trip with some friends to go see her. That way your husband won't question anything and your friends with have each other so you can spend alone time with this woman. Just make sure you know what you are getting into and have your friends with you the first time you meet just in case. Good luck!

I was married to my husband for 30 years. He was my only sexual partner. Three years ago I fell in love with a woman & my whole world has turned upside down. I left him (never had the guts to tell him I am a lesbian), moved into an apt. My GF lives very close by. We live in the closet but it is making us crazy. We fear telling our children, our church etc. If you are able, go be with her. Life is too short.