Sometimes I Wish I Was Not

I went to a baby shower this weekend (Haitian) it was so nice and I had a good time. There were a lot of married women that were prego. I knew many of the people there. I just wanted a little of what they had. I knew that I would not be well recieved if they knew. I am Haitian and I don't know one other Haitian lesbian, it would be cool. I would have to give up some things. I am ok with the fact that I will probably not find one, though I know that they are out there, just not sure where. I want a family but I can't even find a lesbian where I am at. I went to a gay club with my friend but there were just a handful of lesbians and they were attached. I was unnoticed by the ones that were free. I feel like I am on a solo island. I hurts to be so lonely sometimes. I am usually too busy to stop and notice but when I pause it hurts.
smilemovie smilemovie
26-30, F
Dec 3, 2012