Enough Said... My Stupidity Strikes Again...

alright...
so there's this girl... we're "kinda" friends...i like her... but of course she has absolutely no idea that i'm bi and that i like her...

as some of you know, when a group of friends is composed of three people, one person ends up as the third wheel., that's the situation we're kind of in., and guess what,. i'm the third wheel... the other two are always together.,so i end up hanging out with other girls,.

but the other when tends to skip classes, a lot. so whenever she's absent, the girl i like always comes to me. like i said, i'm the third wheel, the "back-up" friend, as my classmates says.

the rest of my friends always says that i shouldn't let her treat me like that., but what can i do? i mean i like her, so i can't help it. i know i sound like an idiot right about now., still...

anyway, i admit what she's doing is starting to hurt and is getting me really pissed., but no matter what i do, i always end up forgiving her. telling myself things that will make me feel better about being such an idiot and forgiving her...

but today, the other girl wasn't present so she was with me,. we were chatting yada yada., and i jokingly said that i'm starting to hate her., guess what.. she laughed and said that she has an idea why... then she looked at me and said, "it's because of how i treat you isn't it?" that hit the jack pot...

i couldn't say anything after that, i don't think i would've wanted anyway. thankfully the bell rang and i left without a word and didn't look back(she didn't even bother calling me back anyway)...

i mean, she knew! she knew that her actions are hurting me! but she kept doing it anyway! what's the deal with that?! i didn't talk to her the rest of the day, i didn't even look at her, or glanced her way... i couldn't tell whether i was hurt, or disappointed or both., but i was pretty sure of one thing., i hate her.

lesson learned? don't be an idiot...
secretsideofme secretsideofme
18-21, F
4 Responses Jan 11, 2013

You have not stated that you address the issue or let her know what is going by ignoring her doesnt prove that your mature. Pls dont be offended by that am just sayin pls stop ignoring her ok and tel her

no worries., i'm not really offended.,
but actually., we already talked., and believe it or not, she was the one who came up to me first., guess ignoring her kinda helped?? lol., just kiddin'., anyway,. i was surprised when she came and apologized but hey, at least i got to tell her what i felt about the way she treats me.,
but it didn't change anything though., they still kept leaving me., guess there's no helping the way they treat me., -___-"
thanks though.,

Yes let me know what happens

will do.. ^^

alright, quick update., (as promised)...
i was trying to think of a way on how i can confront her about what happened the last time we talked., i was going out of my mind thinking about it., but then when i got to class., she just casually walks up to me and acts like as if NOTHING happened.,!
that makes me mad even more., so whenever we catch each other's eyes, i look away and act like i didn't see her., or sometimes i ignore her, especially when we were at lunch, she sat next to me but i acted like i didn't care., (and i didn't) she tries talking to me and tries getting my attention but i ignore her.,
i know i sound mean., but it strangely feels., satisfying.,?
i think she's only doing that because she feels guilty and bad for the way she treats me and not because she likes me the way i like her., also she and our other friend still kept leaving me behind., and that's just today.,
any thoughts?

I think you should address the issue to her about how she is treating you, (putting aside for a bit the fact that you like her) because what she is doing is wrong and the fact that she realise that she is hurting you and stil continuing is even worse, you need to be the mature one to let her understand that if she continue she wil loose your frenship, let her know your hurting by her actions and that she need to decide right now what she plans to do about it. Though it could also be but i maybe wrong she likes you jus as you do her, and the fact that she asked you if it is her ways that makes you start to hate her, to me shows that she has been waiting for you to come to her about it but you didnt an so i think talk to her and find out why is she doing what she is doing. By you not talkin to her doesn show your mature but addressin the issue is the right thing for you to do. Hope this help

cool., thanks for the advice., i'll try talking to her on monday., want me to let you know what happens? since, it's you're advice and all...

I think you should address the issue to her about how she is treating you, (putting aside for a bit the fact that you like her) because what she is doing is wrong and the fact that she realise that she is hurting you and stil continuing is even worse, you need to be the mature one to let her understand that if she continue she wil loose your frenship, let her know your hurting by her actions and that she need to decide right now what she plans to do about it. Though it could also be but i maybe wrong she likes you jus as you do her, and the fact that she asked you if it is her ways that makes you start to hate her, to me shows that she has been waiting for you to come to her about it but you didnt an so i think talk to her and find out why is she doing what she is doing. By you not talkin to her doesn show your mature but addressin the issue is the right thing for you to do. Hope this help