I Know What I Am I Just Cant Accept It

I know I am a lesbian, I have known since I was 8 years old I'm now 17. I don't want to be a lesbian though. I didn't choose this. I want to marry a man and be happy but I know I never will because I like girls. I have been with boys before to 'convince' myself I'm straight but it didn't help. I tried being with a girl to see if it made me feel any different. It only made me feel more ashamed and I hate myself. I don't know why I don't want to be a lesbian, one of my closest friends is a lesbian. My parents have close friends who are gay and lesbian. I never want to come out the closest.
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2 Responses Jan 19, 2013

same here.i really think marrying a man would stop all this lesbian feelings.still looking forward now

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