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At Least I Can Be Proud Here, Where No One Knows Me.

A personal story in the experience: I Am a Closet Lesbian
I sn't that sad? That we have to live in a worl where the only place we can be ourselves is when we are anonymous. I mean, of course Rose Donovan is not my real name. It is the name of one of my fictional characters. I could not out my real name on here for fear someone I knew would come along, and find out things about me that they would tease me and hate me for. Isn't that sad? The kind of world we live in, where people live in fear every day of how much longer they will be able to keep their secrets? Don't you with you could be more open with the people who know you?

That is why I love this place, because I finally have people I can talk to. this is what I've always wanted . . . to be accepted even with my differences. I love it that I can say my deepest, darkest secrets here, and people still talk to me, in fact, they talk to me BECAUSE I have spilled my deepest, darkest secrets.

 

It will be years before I will be able to tell this one to anyone I know. I want to be out on my own, supporting myself, with tons of friends, before I spill this, and come out of the closet, because I don't want to find myself homeless and friendless when I'm barely even 17. 

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Posted Jul 24th, 2007 at 2:01PM
I agree with everything that you said. And, like Diana said, it is good to wait for a good timing. I hvaen't told any of my friends that I'm bisexual... they would automatically reject me... I hear them make fun of others who are bi... I worked hard to gain some few friendships.. But, thats why I love this site! Like you said, you can be open and people still talk to you. You get a feeling of being wanted here.. You'll know the right time to come out, and you'll be happy when you do. Take care!
     
Posted Jul 27th, 2008 at 1:18AM
i also love this site!! i think it encourage many people to live their life, and to know that we are not alone, that many people suffer the same as us!! Im proud of saying that im bisexual here in this site =)
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Posted Aug 26th, 2008 at 10:09PM
SAME! i hate pretending to be someone im not..and trust me you will break or worst of all forget who you really are but its nice to have this site and thats why i think all of us have that in common. We looked for a place where we can be ourselves and it is sad that it has to be anonymous. Im bisexual and i hear it all the time how even gays are against bisexualism because its either one or the other but i dont go for gender only personality:)) and im here to support you if you ever need it:)
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Posted Sep 18th, 2008 at 2:35PM
Something I have learned is that you have to do what makes you happy because nobody else will. It's sad I know but it's the truth. You are the only one who has to live your life so make sure it's a great one!!
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Posted Sep 18th, 2008 at 3:44PM
You will know when it is your time to come out, just dont let your self suffer out of fear that you wont be accepted, because you will be.
     
Posted Sep 18th, 2008 at 5:07PM
you will know when it's time to tell but try not to do it in anger that would hurt more people than you think good luck in your young life xx
     
Posted Sep 28th, 2008 at 9:04AM
i feel the same,..:] i know I was never been myself, ever. Until now. Too scared to come out eyt? me too..I'm also barely 17..I'm afraid of rejection... I'm too afraid to lose..everyone. :(
     
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Posted Apr 8th, 2009 at 10:20AM
I find it really a sad thing that in today's world the only way many people can "be themselves" is to be anonymous on the internet.

Half the time you can't even get a good meaningful conversation going with your friends and family today. You have to go to the net to be heard and to really talk.

It's sad that the world's coming to this.

Sorry to hear about your troubles. I hope it all works out ok in the end.
     
Posted Apr 8th, 2009 at 12:00PM
As one who has stood where you are, about 10 years ago, I can only reach out and give you a hug, and a kiss on the cheek.

So many of the other commenters have it right: be true to yourself. Shakespeare said it so well in Hamlet:

"This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man."

Kisses

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