I've known I like girls since I was little but I like boys too. It's still quite confusing to me if I actually 'like' boys I mean I'm physically attracted to men and women at the same time and I'm sure I like girls but not so sure about guys. I find some boys attractive and cute but it's been long since I had feelings and wanted to give everything for a boy. Anyway I still consider myself bisexual. I've never told anyone I'm a lesbian or bi, I've acted 'straight' my whole life because I care about what other ppl would think of me and also because my mother is strongly against gays (she's quite worried I'm gay but doesnt say it straight to my face, only asks me sometimes if I got another bf yet, half joking, cuz she REALLY hopes I'm not gay) I've had two boyfriends before, I dated them only so to make myself seem cool and 'straight'. (Dating made teenagers seem cool idek) And when I have feelings for a girl, I would do everything to make sure she's happy but I never talk about it and I'd hide my feelings as if there's nothing. I'm afraid that I'll go through my whole life acting as someone I'm not and end up marrying someone I don't even love. I know it's terrible and I should come out to be who I really am but I can't. For now. Maybe someday when I meet someone that's worth the risk I'll (maybe) do it. But before that I'll have to just live my life, not totally being who I am.