I don't know what to say. I know that all of my life I dated the jocks and manly-est of men. I married a blend of hard core manly construction working man and was married to him for 20 years. But I know that I have been attracted to girls when I was young girl.
Now I am divorced. I have dated and had two serious relationships but I am non-committal. Now I don't even bother dating hardly. I may have a fling with a guy but I'm not into them for a relationship. That's weird for me. I love men. Or so I thought.
But my BFF once confessed to me that if she wasn't married and if I was a man she'd be all over me. I found that incredible because I was always drawn to her and now realize I am in love with her.
When I am out more women hit on me than men. Once while I was on a date. I was mortified but I played it off by buying her a drink.
I check out women as much as my guy buddies do. Last summer I developed a crush on a younger college gal and found myself trying to pick her up!
I even find that I at times act rather sexist and surround myself only with guys. I don't like being around women. Am I avoiding them?
So maybe 2009 I should really let myself go and think about love in a different way. Maybe I should explore this and see if that's what is keeping me from being in a relationship with a guy.
Wow, this could be a new journey for me!