22 Year Old, Ex-athlete, Masculine, And Trying To Come OutI just graduated from college and was the captain of the swim team there and am 22 going on 23. All my friends are jocks and it doesn't help that I've already forced myself to have sex and be in relationships withgirls that ended up hurting those girls in the long run.
In college I was the guy that everyone loved- tall, good looking, athletic and even in a fraternity. All my friends still respect me, but don't even know the real me. What's worse is that my two brothers who are both a year behind me (my blood and best friends) don't know. I tried to tell one of them last year when we were drunk together but I ended up denying it the next morning when he asked. I told him it was the alcohol talking. The problem is that I am also hyper-masculine and not attracted to effeminate men. Sometimes I wish this weren't true, but I am looking for a guy who is like me- athletic, outgoing, and someone that I can easily identify/kick it with.
I have had my fair share of male hookups throughout college, but in the end they didn't work cuz I was too ***** to be seen with a guy that I "usually don't hang out with." I am seriously done with that attitude. I want to find a guy who is like me- ARE YOU OUT THERE?!?!!? I know you are but being in this situation we will never meet the way heterosexuals get to. Hopefully by becoming part of this community I can find that guy- I want so much to fall in love- the real type of love with sexual feelings involved. If you are out there- message me, tell me your story, I know I sound desperate, but I have finally come to grips with myself and feel like this website is a great start at finding a guy just like me.