I Fell In Love With My Best Freind

Well back in school, i was 16, there was this dude, he was 2 years younger than me, first time i saw him, i was lovestruck, anyways i tried to talk to him, and we became freinds, the thing is nobody ever knew about me being gay, and i was pretty sure he's not, i cried for days, cuz we became best freinds after that, and i got to know him better, and i fell in love with him even more, he's like idk Gorgeous ? and i just dunno i loved him so much, and he plays soccer and worked out a bit so he had this amazing body, and i'm sure his **** wud satisfy my *** more than anythinh in the world. Tho i never told him, i chose just enjoy being with him as a freind, iwas too afraid of losing him. we stayed besties till when i came 20 then we grew apart due to lots of stuff, but i will never forget how much i love him ..
dukedukedevlin dukedukedevlin
22-25, M
3 Responses Jan 14, 2013

If you guys grew apart then now is the time to tell him. Even if you don't feel the same way about him anymore. It's still nice to have closure. I thinking telling I'm will answer the unanswered questions you may have had.

i still have the virtual wall in my head

I feel if you guys don't see each other on a daily biases then you can tell him. I would. Just be like hey what's up long time no see. O btw I had the biggest crush on you. Does he know you are gay?

is it a deprived by lust,,, or real love? i'm not questioning you, i just want you to know that true love is not the eagerness of possession :)

And i know your not like that

i really loved him, with all my heart, it wasnt abt possession

I knw hw hard it is to lv smone so deeply n never able to tell him.god bless u

yeah :( it hurts so much