Not A Complete Failure... But...

So I have always struggled wtih relationships.

It seems to be something that I've inherited. Both my parents are mostly socially disfunctional - father's been married three times and mother was a sexless lesbian who took her anxieties out on me.

The upshot of that is that I've made some bad choices in my life and I find it very easy to let go, to trust another - and yet it's one of the things I want most of all. So I've been known to make mistakes and sometimes I close down - especially when things get difficult. I also demand my own way and I cannot be out of control.

It's compliced, pretty difficult to explain as you might gather from reading this but hey... I might be mixed up and difficult but I don't bite (well, when it's consensual I do) but I'm not a bastard. I just need a bright young thing to put her faith in me and be ok when I struggle a bit I guess
Riffster Riffster
51-55, M
1 Response May 20, 2012

Thank you for sharing your story with EP. <br />
And you will find love and someone, who will love you for who you are. <br />
See the within you and the special person, who you are. <br />
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Love is hard and complicated! <br />
Never give up love, because it will be harder for you to pursuit a relationship, when the right person comes along and does her Magic on you :) :) :) <br />
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I learn everyday about love and people. <br />
And it´s hard to think the way you do, but I believe that there is nothing with you. <br />
Only the choices that we make in life. <br />
When you learn about love, you will be better in learning and being better in adapting into new changes in life. <br />
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Don´t beat yourself and learn from your past mistakes... I am sure, there is something, which you haven´t made any notice of. <br />
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Good luck and be strong! <br />
- Marin. <br />
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PS. I hope this answer shed some lights into your doubts and worries.

Thanks for your positivity and reassurance.

Believe me, I'm done beating myself up :) I'm actually feeling as good about myself and my life as I've ever felt ;-)

Most importantly the future's looking pretty exciting and I'll be glad to find the girl to share it with :)