A Complete List Of Failures

1. Failed to be the son everyone wanted.

2. Failed at school, even failed at recess: rather then play with swings or other kids I just walked around in my head

3. Failed to grasp martial arts when my dad was teaching me. It was confusing and I lack discipline.

4. Failed to tell the girl I liked that I liked her in 7th grade.

5. Failed my father when he needed me. As a result he died.

6. Failed to be a good little Christian. Loved Christ, but can't stand to pray constantly. Hated church.

7. Failed at food: my tastes are very plain, and everything I eat makes me sick.

8. Failed at being social: I was always a reject, an outcast.

9. Failed at being an outcast: A true outcast is noticed and rejected.

10. Failed at being an artist: some things I get, but mostly no.

11. Failed at clay pottery class: no matter what I did my pots were lousy.

12. Failed at being a good grandson son: at 16 I lived only with my grandfather who I didn't get along with much.

13. Failed at being a good friend: my best friends all eventually hated me.

14. Failed as a DM: did AD&D up to a point, then made my own system. Never perfected / completed it.

15. Failed as a writer: never completed anything. My english and grammer were only so good. Some of my formats unacceptable.

16. Failed as a gamer: theres some games I can beat, mostly older ones, but newer ones and live action ones lose me.

17. Failed as a master: as a kid I teased my first dog a lot. Later became much more loving, but a few conflicts.

18. Failed at MMOs: when it comes to raiding, vent, and l33t terminology.

19. Failed at RP: can't stand to walk, not run, and can't be in character 100% of the time.

20. Failed at drugs: got into some for a while, but never got "too" high.

21. Failed to grow drugs: my plants all died and the 2 that lived were male. Gave it up.

22. Failed at sleep: always have insomnia. Can't sleep when I want to.

23. Failed at regularity: have IBS. stomach always hurts.

24. Failed at schedules: Can't keep a schedule for more then a little while.

25. Failed at music: both guitar and keyboard.

26. Failed at smoking: tried to smoke several times, can't smoke it right, and didn't get me high or addicted.

27. Failed at fashion: I do my own thing.

28. Failed at cleanliness: both in consistent hygiene and keeping a room clean.

29. Failed at cooking: some stuff comes out okay, but usually I fail.

30. Failed at exercise: bought a bowflex. never use it. I'm really not that physical anyway.

31. Failed at fasting: too hungry, heart would start racing, etc. Could only live on water for 2 or 3 days.

32. Failed as Religion: tried buddhism, christianity, wicca, new age stuff, atheism. Can't devote to any of it completely.

33. Failed at mystical experiences: see failed at religion.

34. Failed at love: failed to be a good lover both in bed and otherwise. A devoted and generous nice guy, but eventually discarded.

35. Failed at home businesses: every single one I tried turned out to be a rip off.

36. Failed at psychology: good with it up to a certain point, but ultimately fail.

37. Failed my own body: in the times I was so depressed I cut myself, and in being overweight.

38. Failed to be an expert: I am no expert on anything. I might come close or know a lot, but never an expert.

39. Failed at work: completely fail at finding work that I enjoy, is good, resume and forms, etc.

40. Failed as a machinist: clumsy, got bits of metal infected in my skin. Was not for me.

41. Failed as a computer guy: good for a while, but stuff is too damn technical and confusing at some points.

42. Failed at being a hermit: it's what I am, alone all the time, but I get lonely, break down, and need to socialize.

43. Failed at saving money. Always spending it on something, withdrawing, getting ripped off, etc.

44. Failed as a customer: didn't always leave feedback (ebay) and sometimes when wronged didn't bother to protest.

45. Failed at being a good patient: I worry, wine, and moan a lot. Can't stand still, etc.

46. Failed as a collector: no complete collection. Music, games, and figures some lost eventually.

47. Failed to take care of myself: in many ways, but most notably my heart has been broken 4 times.

 

Thats about all I can think of right now. I never realized just how much of a failure I really was. I've thought about suicide, but if I attempt it I'd likely fail.

 

Steven5981 Steven5981
31-35, M
5 Responses Feb 11, 2010

im going the same road as you went . people like us want to die but dont cause we hope that we could change and become successful in what we do but it never happens and we end up as lifetime failures

Im familiar with failure. Some people just dont get the consistancy of it. They say "we all fail at somethings" then they go back to their sucesses. It seems that everything I involve myself in it fails for me. Right now Im in a homeless shelter because of failure. Sometimes I think a curse has placed on me or voodoo has been made in my image. Seriously....if I hear "sorry sir you dont qualify or sorry sir we dont need any volunteers at this time" or sorry sir were not hiring" even tho theres a help wanted sign in the window....im gonna spontaneousy combust.

Im familiar with failure. Some people just dont get the consistancy of it. They say "we all fail at somethings" then they go back to their sucesses. It seems that everything I involve myself in it fails for me. Right now Im in a homeless shelter because of failure. Sometimes I think a curse has placed on me or voodoo has been made in my image. Seriously....if I hear "sorry sir you dont qualify or sorry sir we dont need any volunteers at this time" or sorry sir were not hiring" even tho theres a help wanted sign in the window....im gonna spontaneousy combust.

Im familiar with failure. Some people just dont get the consistancy of it. They say "we all fail at somethings" then they go back to their sucesses. It seems that everything I involve myself in it fails for me. Right now Im in a homeless shelter because of failure. Sometimes I think a curse has placed on me or voodoo has been made in my image. Seriously....if I hear "sorry sir you dont qualify or sorry sir we dont need any volunteers at this time" or sorry sir were not hiring" even tho theres a help wanted sign in the window....im gonna spontaneousy combust.

Don't worry about failing. You tried some things, at least you tried. That doesn't make you a failure. Success is over rated anyway! Everyone fails at things at some point or another, it's not a bad thing.