I Am a Compulsive Liar
First of all excuse me for my English, I'm not a native speaker but I couldn't find a group like that in my own language.
I lie and I do it a lot. They are not big lies, actually they are pretty stupid and they usually don't harm anybody (except for myself). To be honest I use those lies to build a fake character, a person who I not really am (and not always I would like to be). Sometimes are fake stories about interesting things I’ve done and other times I just plagiarize them but always with the same purpose: exalt myself, my life and achievements in order to get other’s admiration and be the center of attention.
I’m not a social awkward person; actually I can say that I have a pretty successful life. But oddly enough, it seems that I usually forget that and then I begin to invent some stories to make my life more interesting.
I’m not proud of that behavior and I want to change it. And I know it’s going to be extremely difficult because I’ve been lying all my life and this behavior has rooted deeply in my personality. And I really can’t afford an expert right now so I decided to try to solve it by myself; and I don’t feel prepared to talk about that with my girlfriend or family neither (I don’t want to disappoint them, which is also one of the reasons I lie for). So I decided that I will write a journal of my unreal stories and deceits to start realizing how much I really need to stop doing it, and as an exercise I will try to stop at least one lie a day (which is difficult since I don’t usually think before telling it, it just comes out of my mouth).
They say that realizing that you have a problem is the first big step and sometimes the most difficult one. Well then, I just have done the first of many steps and I expect the path to be hard and even disappointing some times, but hopefully I will eventually get through it. And knowing that I’m not alone in this journey really gives me strength.
I lie and I do it a lot. They are not big lies, actually they are pretty stupid and they usually don't harm anybody (except for myself). To be honest I use those lies to build a fake character, a person who I not really am (and not always I would like to be). Sometimes are fake stories about interesting things I’ve done and other times I just plagiarize them but always with the same purpose: exalt myself, my life and achievements in order to get other’s admiration and be the center of attention.
I’m not a social awkward person; actually I can say that I have a pretty successful life. But oddly enough, it seems that I usually forget that and then I begin to invent some stories to make my life more interesting.
I’m not proud of that behavior and I want to change it. And I know it’s going to be extremely difficult because I’ve been lying all my life and this behavior has rooted deeply in my personality. And I really can’t afford an expert right now so I decided to try to solve it by myself; and I don’t feel prepared to talk about that with my girlfriend or family neither (I don’t want to disappoint them, which is also one of the reasons I lie for). So I decided that I will write a journal of my unreal stories and deceits to start realizing how much I really need to stop doing it, and as an exercise I will try to stop at least one lie a day (which is difficult since I don’t usually think before telling it, it just comes out of my mouth).
They say that realizing that you have a problem is the first big step and sometimes the most difficult one. Well then, I just have done the first of many steps and I expect the path to be hard and even disappointing some times, but hopefully I will eventually get through it. And knowing that I’m not alone in this journey really gives me strength.
By:
idnic
Age:
26-30
,
Male
