Can't Stop

I am a compulsive liar and I can't seem to stop. I've been lying to family and friends for as long as I can remember over the smallest stupidest things. My current girlfriend has caught me in lies and has stayed with me as I worked through them.

Everything was going great until I was laid off of work and depression came. I began lying again. This time about important things, like bills being paid and money. My girlfriend confronted me last night about my lies and now is unsure of how she feels. She doesn't know if she wants to stay or break up and it's killing me.

I try to be a good person and be truthful but sometimes I fear the consequences for telling the truth so I lie instead. I know it's hurtful and it has cost me relationships in the past. I don't want to lose my girlfriend over this problem that I know I can solve. If she leaves I'll be lost, devestated, and won't know what to do.

I want to stop lying and I know I can because I did before. Right now I just want to stop lying and somehow hopefully repair my relationship. I'm so in love with her. People aren't perfect and everyone makes mistakes. Some of us make mistakes over and over again. I don't know what to do or where to start. I'm overwhelmed and scared.
needhelp7184 needhelp7184
26-30, F
2 Responses Jan 16, 2013

Hi Need Help,
I know you are scared and desperate and I absolutely know you are speaking truth because I have heard your story a 1000 times via the voices of other people who lie like you do.

You have what I define as a "lying addiction." To give you some insight into what that is, see this article I wrote...

http://ezinearticles.com/?Lying-Is-An-Addiction,-Not-A-Moral-Issue&id=7465210

...and to help you to understand why you lie, I suggest you read this forum post I wrote which will answer a lot of questions for you too...

http://www.dailystrength.org/groups/liars-anonymous/discussions/messages/15362809

Stay strong. There is hope and there is help.
Big Hug,
Billi

Is this story lies?

No it's not at all. I am reaching out for help.