I Don't Know What To Do

I lie and have lied to everyone I know, my memory is becoming blurry and nothing makes sense anymore. It started when I transfered to a new high school, I thought I needed to create a new image and a couple of lies wouldn't hurt, say "I think therefore I am". And then it grew and grew and no one thinks I'm lying. No one. And I just don't know how to stop it, I build myself the perfect life, it was just not the one I wanted. I made myself out to be this terribly blunt and honest person, but all I did was lie and make it sound like the truth and the truth make it sound like a lie, like John Steinback said. And now I'm trapped and I don't want that anymore.
losingdreams losingdreams
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 18, 2013

One day at a time. It took years of practice to be a "good" liar, so it will take that long to be great at telling the truth.

You can do it! Take one day at a time and check yourself often