I Want to Stop This...

Well sadly enough I can actually remember when I started lying. I was in 3rd grade and it hasn't stopped since. I am 19 now and literally I find myself making up stories in my head that I could tell or make more interesting ...and of course that always involves lies after lies. I know I am lying but I can't stop one part of me tries to stop me in the middle of my sentence but lying overpowers me. I really want to stop I have actually prayed and asked God to help me stop lying, and I keep telling myself that I am going to stop lying an that everyday I tell a lie I will write it down so that I stop but I just can't stop. It is getting pretty ridiculous and tiring.

kvmontes kvmontes
18-21, F
4 Responses Feb 28, 2009

I'm right there with you. I really think that the lies in me are wrong, but they're always there. Even when the truth would work better for me, I STILL TELL LIES. I can't stop this on my own.

it sounds really frustrating and it's terrible because how can you have any real relationships with people when you know you're lying all the time you need outside help it sounds almost like an obsessive-compulsive disorder and if it is, that's good news because there are really effective medications for that..... do the lies somehow make you feel less anxious and more in control? that would be a sign of obsessive compulsive disorder even if it's not that it sounds like you need a professional to help sort it out

tell me one of your lying stories and I will tell you if it sounds too good to be true.

I KNOW! it's crazy. The only positive about this is i can write an awesome creative story :)