Where Do I Go From Here?

I am 19 years old, and I am not yet a felon, but I have 3 pending felonies of first degree murder, attempted armed robbery, and conspiracy to commit attempted AR. I am distraught because back in March, I was arrested before I could graduate high school. I had a 3.93 GPA and I was headed for college in the fall..but hanging with the wrong crowd and making bad choices ended me up at the wrong place at the wrong time. NO, I didn't do the things they charged me with, but in the state of North Carolina, I am just as guilty as the person who pulled the trigger. I am currently out on bond, since June, and I went to a local Adult High School program and quickly got my HS Diploma. I cannot get a job for anything, because who's going to hire me when I have those charges on my record? Before that, my record was clean..but now I feel like the world is caving in around me and I don't think I'll ever be able to accomplish my dreams of helping children and being a social worker. I feel so alone, and nobody around me understands my pain. I just wish I could find one person to give me a chance to show them I can work and be dependable. I know I'm facing a lot of time..but I would like to get on my feet while I'm awaiting trial.. I just can't seem to do it. I pray to God, and tried going to church too..It just seems like nothing is working.
MissUnderstood160 MissUnderstood160
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 2, 2012

This beaks my heart. Where are you now?