I know it's bad to say that I'm this negative thing but this is what I am. I feel scared to live out my life. I'm scared to move out of my parents house because I don't know if I'll be able to handle living on my own and supporting myself. I'm scared that I'll get bored with working and choose to give myself a "vacation" from it and never go back to work. I don't trust myself which is a problem. I've grown up with my dad belittling me and my mom so disappointed in my weight and progression in life that I just don't feel like I can live. I'm too terrified of change to be able to progress in life. I have no confidence that I can move out or choose to work and stick with it. I'm too scared to live. I feel like I am a total coward. I AM a total coward.