Too Scared To Live

I know it's bad to say that I'm this negative thing but this is what I am. I feel scared to live out my life. I'm scared to move out of my parents house because I don't know if I'll be able to handle living on my own and supporting myself. I'm scared that I'll get bored with working and choose to give myself a "vacation" from it and never go back to work. I don't trust myself which is a problem. I've grown up with my dad belittling me and my mom so disappointed in my weight and progression in life that I just don't feel like I can live. I'm too terrified of change to be able to progress in life. I have no confidence that I can move out or choose to work and stick with it. I'm too scared to live. I feel like I am a total coward. I AM a total coward.
weirdywithabeardy weirdywithabeardy
22-25, F
3 Responses Jun 28, 2012

I'm afraid to be myself.

If only we had faith in ourselves to change the things we want to change, the fear of change keeps me stuck in the same place, I'm a coward too :(

I'm hamstrung by my cowardice as well.