Cutting...again

i have been cutting since i was 12. no one ever knew until a few months  ago.  my best friend suspected, but i had never actually told her. now so many years later i am still in the same boat. i want to hurt, i want to see the blood, and feel it drip into a puddle on the floor. why does it never go away? just the thought of it makes me want to do it even more. why do i feel like i need to punished by my own hand? and is it really punishment when i enjoy the feeling?

metalgirl99 metalgirl99
36-40, F
1 Response Apr 20, 2008

Oh please sweetie go and get help , you deserve to live this life! If you trust your friend go together and get some help, so you will not self harm yourself. I hope you will go , you are not alone. Hope you will get courage and say I am worthy and I will go and get help to help you get through this. Take care xx