I Started Kitten Scratching At Age 13

I'm 22 now and They have gotten worse and worse the cuts and I thought it was just a faze but i just don't seem to be able to stop. I started at 13 not so seriously just "kitten scratching" but since then i've gotten stitches a few times and most of them could have used stitches but it was useless trying to bring me to the Dr every time I cut. I have Hate carved on my left arm and Love carved on my right arm. I hate myself so much though! i love the way cutting makes me feel but I can't keep doing this to myself or I will eventually just be one huge scar. not literally but i will have scars almost everywhere. My arm and most of my left leg is taken up and some of my stomach. I need help and i already go to counseling three times a week but i just feel like my life is falling apart and will never get better and I don't know what to do and sometimes i feel like i want to cut and just end my life.....
stephybear1990 stephybear1990
22-25, F
May 15, 2012