Relapsed After 3 Years

I started cutting when I was 13, I was raped and I could not tell anyone it was to humiliating so to get my anger out I started cutting. Its been a struggle ever since.

I relapsed a few weeks ago and have been cutting ever since, Some much presure is on my shoulders to finish college and get a good paying job, I am already working 3 jobs while going to school full time, I am the sole provider for both my parent and my three kids (under the age of 5) I am a single mom my ex divorced me because I was pregnant with our third child and he did not want more kids he told me it was him or the baby, I would have started cutting again right then if I had not been pregnant and scared of what the ob might of said if she saw the cuts.

I am tired of being strong, I am tired of shouldering all the responsiblity. I want someone to hold me and tell me that everything will be ok and that they will protect ME. I want to be protected and taken care of, great now I sound selffish.

Is it too much to want to be loved and cherished and have someone who thinks I am worth it.
jeng7623 jeng7623
26-30, F
Nov 28, 2012